There a lot of circumstances when I feel to hate myself for not doing my job and my responsibility well especially when my baby’s safety is concern. My day was not that good for I have done something not well, a lot of flubdub encountered. This evening just before my baby falls into sleep, she gets so wild and irritated but I failed to attend her causing her head banged on the wall but not strongly stricken though but she cried a lot. I knew from the very start that she is so hyper and energetic so I should have brand name baby monitors to watch and keep me alert. It’s like my heart was crushing to its zero state seeing my baby sleeping and yet tears is in her eyes.