I cannot believe that I am already here so so so far away. I feel like I am just dropped from the plane to the jungle or just like I walk inside the dark room where I know nothing or I see nothing. I just need to find and figure things out. I am so thankful that God gave me these team of people who where very supportive that give me candles to lighten up the room so I can see and settle myself. I am also thankful that somehow He allowed me to be flexible to things. It needs a lot of effort to be able to mingle and socialize with new people. I need to penetrate their world in order for me be part of their world. It is not easy at times but I have no choice but to stand up on my feet to be part of the circle of friends or family.
I am already 5 days away from home. I miss my family and friends a lot. It is so easy to go with the wave of loneliness but I need to fight for those moments so that I will not dwell with that emotions. It will hinder me from being at home here. I always remember what my friend told me that “no matter where you are even you just stay for 1 day in the place make it your home.” For now, I am somehow feel at home in the place where I stay. it is just kind of hard for now because I do nothing except learning the language. I can not wait to have my travel permit and be at the place where I work.